Onions

The first thing that My mom asked me do after I return home for semester break is to peel and slice 1 kg of red onions. Yes, that much. She planned to cook some sort of Sambal that everybody else in the house loved, me included (I am not a spicy food lover, so I usually don't eat that much...).

I haven't touch any onions for months; and today I cried buckets , and cried several buckets more when I slice them onions thinly. Why, onion why? What sin did I commit to you that you had to make me cry so much? *dramatic gestures and expession*

Wait.

I'm gonna eat the onion later, right, after we're done with cooking the said Sambal?

Okay.

Not your fault. Consider it me crying for your funeral. LOL~

Home

It is all so familiar.

It felt good.

It felt right.

It's warm.

It's mine.

Burn, Baby, Burn

I once stumbled upon my eldest brother burning all of his mangas; ones that he had been collecting since he was in high school until he's done with his degree right before he started his job. I couldn't even imagine why would you burn something that you used to cherish, I mean, its a collection that he worked on for years. I know how much he loved the series (Dragon Ball Z books), I mean we all do but seeing him burning the books himself makes me really wonder but the question "Why?" was never asked.

Now that I am of his age, I am starting to see the world the way he did. Now that I think back, I supposed having the books around makes him remember of his high school life (as in the past, his teens years), and now that he's a grown up, he had to be rid of the "things kid do" so that he can carry on living and start being an adult. Maybe when the books are all gone, he wouldn't feel a need to further be attched to it.

I wouldn't go as far as the Elric's brother to burn their home so that they can focus on the task at hand (Suddenly a Fullmetal Alchemist reference, lol), or burn the books like my brother did. I am thinking of sealing my past in boxes, and leave them somewhere where I could not see them until one fine day I found them; and realize they are all the past, and I am in the present.

Speechless

I don't usually go gaga over Gaga, but this song~ wow.

Lady Gaga Speechless

Hooow?

I can't believe what you said to me, Last night, we were alone
You threw your arms up, Baby you gave up, you gave up

I can't believe how you looked at me, With your James Dean glossy eyes
In your tight jeans with your long hair, And your cigarette stained lies

Could we fix you if you broke?, And is your punch line just a joke?

I'll never talk again, Oh boy you've left me speechless
You've left me speechless, so speechless

And I'll never love again, Oh boy you've left me speechless
You've left me speechless, so speechless

I can't believe how you slurred at me, With your half-wired broken jaw
You popped my heart seams, All of my bubble dreams, bubble dreams

I can't believe how you looked at me, With your Johnnie Walker eyes
He's gonna get you and after he's through, There's gonna be no love left to rye

And I know that it's complicated, But I'm a loser in love so baby
Raise a glass to mend, All the broken hearts
Of all my wrecked up friends

I'll never talk again, Oh boy you've left me speechless
You've left me speechless so speechless

And I'll never love again,, Oh friend you've left me speechless
You've left me speechless, so speechless

H-ooow?

And after all the drinks and bars that we've been to
Would you give it all up? Could I give it all up for you?

And after all the boys and the girls that we've been through
Would you give it all up?Could you give it all up?
If I promise boy to you

That I'll never talk again, And I'll never love again
I'll never write a song, Won't even sing along
I'll never love again

H-ooow?

So speechless, You left me speechless, so speechless

Will you ever talk again? Oh boy, why you so speechless?
You've left me speechless so speechless

Some men may follow me, But you choose death for company
Why you so speechless? Oh oh ohhhh

Restricting Bully

I am so thankful of the existence of the restriction button today. Its been so difficult to keep some fellas on Facebook but you don't have a choice but to keep them still, so restrict them is such a good idea!

I really can't handle internet bully, even if some of them are people I never know in person. Its just that maybe with the power of being anonymous, the vicious side of people come out. So, that's bad, people. Stop doing it. I do told them to stop but you can't actually tell people to simply stop. I have no power over anyone. I just prayed that in due time, people will grow up, change and it better be positive changes.

Fanfiction

I haven't updated the story I've written for so long~

I suppose people have moved on and give up on waiting but when I actually logged in today, there's people who's been reading until today and waiting for me to update.

I guess, I'm gonna sharpen my pencil and start again. I'll just complete the story and quit. Just that one story~ because that's the only one with guests still.

Thank you for your faith in me. =D

Lost

After endless rigorous tasks to be completed; and I'm done with it, I actually felt a loss. Like suddenly there's an emptiness~ like.. What do I do now? lol.

Anyway, I'm done with the semester, so yay! Everything is over! Until next sem biches~