Faith - less

Last month I said I'll make it.

Last month I'm convinced that I am able.

Today, I'm wondering what the hell is happening; and the fact that I've strayed so far off from my goal.

But then again, what was it that I'm aiming for.

I'm scared, I'm lost, I'm hopeless, yet I couldn't seem to find the reason why am I feeling this way.

I feel stupid. Like, stupid, STUPID.

I doubt whether I can do anything, can I?

out of place

I went to a talk from morning til late evening; about money making.

Being a person who barely graduate and has no experience whatsoever in stocks and whatsoever, zero interest in the field, and no intention of actually join in; I found the seminar very, very daunting. I understand everything taught by the speakers, but my heart is just unmoved. I know whatever they're teaching is possible, doable and I am totally capable of doing it; I just don't feel like doing it.

Afermath: headache.