Slippin Away

One word. "Aaaaaaaa~ AAA. Aaaaaaa~" *follow the tune*

I'm married to Mr. Tissue

Well, I have been living everyday with Mr. Tissue, literally. There has never been a day where I can separate myself from him. I had him with me everytime I go out, everywhere I go, and even when I sleep.

Why? Every single day I will definitely wake up with a runny nose; and that it won't stop until its noon. If it haven't stopped until noon, it will stay until I sleep. Which is why, I never ran out of stock and people who lived with me had been faithful reminder to buy some everytime we hang out.

There are even times I didn't leave house because I don't have Mr. Tissue to accompany me.

Today is one of those days; and everyone else is out. Sobs.

I guess they'll bring Mr.Tissue back when they return~

Turning Point

I am still running on a straight lane...

A Nomad's Life for Me

Always moving from two places is a daunting work. Seriously, you have to pack up on friday, unpack, yada yada yada, pack again and unpack on monday and the cycle repeats, forever. I wish we would stay at one place soon. I'm getting tired of all the moving dramas, the tension and the radio show. Sobs.

Let's Fly: B1A4

Not literally, of course. It's the first title of the mini album by B1A4 (Yes, me be writing tons about them, click exit if you wish not to see my fangirling self). Truthfully, I have just got the chance (By chance, I meant money) to get the album. It's the first time ever am I really supporting the artist that I like. Like, really, buy something that I know will directly channelled into their pockets because I truly appreciate their music. WIth YouTube, who buys album nowadays anyway? I did.

I feel weird, because I have the album literally within my grasp and it's just felt... really.. I don't know. It's not like it's a shirt where I get to wear; it's something that I need to listen to in order for me to "see" the thing. Why, me? And why now, me? All my weirdness aside, I love it. The pictures are pretty and the paper they used for the album is not newpaper-ish (I hate touching newpaper, that's why I read them online) and the face value totally won me over. Thumbs up for the pretty.

I listened to all the song in the album and some are liked better than the other. If I had to rank them in my personal inkigayo, it would be:

1. OK & the instrumental (I listen to instrumental when doing homework, less distraction but enough to help me focus on the job; but I usually had it in between classical piano/orchestra OST from Nodame Cantabile)
2. Only learned bad things (Love the serious tone of the song but the MV seems a little too elementary for song with such message, no go for me in terms of video; a pass for song. Heart melting.)
3. Bling Girl (Sweet and cute; makes me smile. Feeling all gigglish, bubbly, fumbly, gooey marshmallowy... etc after listening to it. Okay, you geddit)
4. Only One ("I pray no tears in your dream?" Me no accept your Engrish. But I understood what you're saying, so, I like you too, song. I guess I pray there'll be no tears in your dream as well? Yes?)
5. Remember (I can't remember what the song is about. I guess that explains the standing of the song in my personal ranking, I suppose)

Food Rondezvous

I haven't seen my sisters in a while so last night was our catching up moment~ We spend the night chatting, eating and playing Candy Crush... LOL~Anyway, it felt great to have "eat, pray, love" quality time in the midst of our busy schedule.

I'm betting we'll be meetingeach other for Aidilfitri soon~

Cowardice

That is what you say to yourself when you've planned to do so many things, talk about it so many times, rehearsed it a million times in your head and you backed out at the final sprint.

It's cowardice.

Why are you so too damn scared to fly? (Hit the light, by Selena Gomez)

Don't you have faith in your ability? Don't you know you can do it?

Of course, you can. It's YOU we're talking here.

"Don’t ever let somebody tell you you can’t do something, not even me.  Alright?  You  have a dream, you gotta protect it.  (When) people can’t do something themselves, they wanna tell you you can’t do it.  If you want something, go get it. Period."

Will Smith’s  Chris Gardner in The Pursuit of Happyness (2006)

 

Ven a Mi

I think I am living in another world up to a certain degree. I kept on thinking scenarios, what I dream would happen and stuff; most of them are things that is just impossible. (The malay proverb describe it as bermimpi di siang hari)

I do realize that I somehow am not living in the real world; I'm in this small bubble of comfort zone where everything falls in line, where everything pleases me and yes, the world revolves around me. Perhaps, the me living in this bubble is the cause of me being unable to connect with real people in reality, and that there's an invisible wall of world difference that separates us. Worst, that might also be a reason why I can sometimes be extremely cold; like ice.

I wanted out. I wanted to leave this space. I wanted to be more understanding, more passionate, more sincere, and loving. I wanted to be more connected to people, not in virtual world, but really, connect with people around me.

I already know what I wanted, and I even found the solution; but its really difficult to leave this perfect bubble. Courage, ven a mi; I need you.

Unforgiving hearts

I've tried so hard, my dear, to show that you're my every dream
Yet you're afraid each thing I do is just some evil scheme
A memory from your lonesome past keeps us so far apart
Why can't I free your doubtful mind and melt your cold cold heart?
Another love before my time made your heart sad and blue
And so my heart is payin' for things I didn't do
In anger, unkind words I say that make the teardrops start
Why can't I free your doubtful mind and melt your cold cold heart? 

Cold Cold Heart, Norah Jones

Gyoza Crave, no. Craze.

My sister and I watched Keizoku 2: SPEC; and in that show, Toda Erika kept on eating Gyoza ever so deliciously that makes us wonder "Is is really that good?"

The problem is, we can't really just go to random Japanese restaurant and ordered one, I mean, even Sushi King's Halal credibility is questioned nowadays (There's been plenty of articles claiming such.. so...yeah). Since it has become something considerably shubhah (Meaning something that we're unsure whether we can/cannot do/eat"), we don't have a choice. Cooking it is.

I googled the recipe, memorize the steps and ingredients, but I wonder. What item can I use to replace Sake? Naah~ I guess I'll just skip it. LOL~ My personal Gyoza, coming soon.

And thanks Toda Erika, you totally make me fall in love with the food at your first bite.

Gyoza!!! <3 <3 <3

Onions

The first thing that My mom asked me do after I return home for semester break is to peel and slice 1 kg of red onions. Yes, that much. She planned to cook some sort of Sambal that everybody else in the house loved, me included (I am not a spicy food lover, so I usually don't eat that much...).

I haven't touch any onions for months; and today I cried buckets , and cried several buckets more when I slice them onions thinly. Why, onion why? What sin did I commit to you that you had to make me cry so much? *dramatic gestures and expession*

Wait.

I'm gonna eat the onion later, right, after we're done with cooking the said Sambal?

Okay.

Not your fault. Consider it me crying for your funeral. LOL~

Home

It is all so familiar.

It felt good.

It felt right.

It's warm.

It's mine.

Burn, Baby, Burn

I once stumbled upon my eldest brother burning all of his mangas; ones that he had been collecting since he was in high school until he's done with his degree right before he started his job. I couldn't even imagine why would you burn something that you used to cherish, I mean, its a collection that he worked on for years. I know how much he loved the series (Dragon Ball Z books), I mean we all do but seeing him burning the books himself makes me really wonder but the question "Why?" was never asked.

Now that I am of his age, I am starting to see the world the way he did. Now that I think back, I supposed having the books around makes him remember of his high school life (as in the past, his teens years), and now that he's a grown up, he had to be rid of the "things kid do" so that he can carry on living and start being an adult. Maybe when the books are all gone, he wouldn't feel a need to further be attched to it.

I wouldn't go as far as the Elric's brother to burn their home so that they can focus on the task at hand (Suddenly a Fullmetal Alchemist reference, lol), or burn the books like my brother did. I am thinking of sealing my past in boxes, and leave them somewhere where I could not see them until one fine day I found them; and realize they are all the past, and I am in the present.

Speechless

I don't usually go gaga over Gaga, but this song~ wow.

Lady Gaga Speechless

Hooow?

I can't believe what you said to me, Last night, we were alone
You threw your arms up, Baby you gave up, you gave up

I can't believe how you looked at me, With your James Dean glossy eyes
In your tight jeans with your long hair, And your cigarette stained lies

Could we fix you if you broke?, And is your punch line just a joke?

I'll never talk again, Oh boy you've left me speechless
You've left me speechless, so speechless

And I'll never love again, Oh boy you've left me speechless
You've left me speechless, so speechless

I can't believe how you slurred at me, With your half-wired broken jaw
You popped my heart seams, All of my bubble dreams, bubble dreams

I can't believe how you looked at me, With your Johnnie Walker eyes
He's gonna get you and after he's through, There's gonna be no love left to rye

And I know that it's complicated, But I'm a loser in love so baby
Raise a glass to mend, All the broken hearts
Of all my wrecked up friends

I'll never talk again, Oh boy you've left me speechless
You've left me speechless so speechless

And I'll never love again,, Oh friend you've left me speechless
You've left me speechless, so speechless

H-ooow?

And after all the drinks and bars that we've been to
Would you give it all up? Could I give it all up for you?

And after all the boys and the girls that we've been through
Would you give it all up?Could you give it all up?
If I promise boy to you

That I'll never talk again, And I'll never love again
I'll never write a song, Won't even sing along
I'll never love again

H-ooow?

So speechless, You left me speechless, so speechless

Will you ever talk again? Oh boy, why you so speechless?
You've left me speechless so speechless

Some men may follow me, But you choose death for company
Why you so speechless? Oh oh ohhhh

Restricting Bully

I am so thankful of the existence of the restriction button today. Its been so difficult to keep some fellas on Facebook but you don't have a choice but to keep them still, so restrict them is such a good idea!

I really can't handle internet bully, even if some of them are people I never know in person. Its just that maybe with the power of being anonymous, the vicious side of people come out. So, that's bad, people. Stop doing it. I do told them to stop but you can't actually tell people to simply stop. I have no power over anyone. I just prayed that in due time, people will grow up, change and it better be positive changes.

Fanfiction

I haven't updated the story I've written for so long~

I suppose people have moved on and give up on waiting but when I actually logged in today, there's people who's been reading until today and waiting for me to update.

I guess, I'm gonna sharpen my pencil and start again. I'll just complete the story and quit. Just that one story~ because that's the only one with guests still.

Thank you for your faith in me. =D

Lost

After endless rigorous tasks to be completed; and I'm done with it, I actually felt a loss. Like suddenly there's an emptiness~ like.. What do I do now? lol.

Anyway, I'm done with the semester, so yay! Everything is over! Until next sem biches~